Incase you were wondering…

Living this far away from you may have been a difficult pill to swallow, but that never stopped me from following my heart and listening to it’s innocent demands.
The moment I became your human, I knew what I was getting into and we seemed to keep things going…
A little earthquake shook the grounds which disturbed the foundation laying process, leaving a small opening for an escape no matter how petty to occur. And when I attempted to do so due to my failure to read in between the lines, I nearly compromised what we had…
Upon realising this, I had taken it upon myself to fix that wounded part of me that demanded to be set free from the bondage of love because this kind was new and very much foreign to me….the healing process came and it was quite a Roller-coaster I got mad at you for being the manifestation that came to life when I thought I never deserved a love like this or a lover like you..

I stopped questioning why you chose me, because my heart kept on telling me how it felt about you too….and my soul reminded me about a time when a princess gave away a gift that was meant for her because she felt unworthy of it….
Her doubting herself negatively influenced her perception on the gift and her worth as a person… Leaving her unhealed and bitter and the next recipient overjoyed and in disbelief….the princess never though the one who brought the gift genuinely appreciated her and she never got to thank him…

I love you and I’m sure of it, I appreciate you more than you know…. And I treasure your entire existence….your absence leaves me confused and embarking on the weirdest of journeys trying to ignore the fact that I miss the one I love… with that being said I’m not going to disappear, because your presence is everything… I never think straight when things aren’t good between us two…I’d like to believe that you’re a part of me.

This is why your absence drives me nuts, if we were to be honest I can’t live without you, you are the future father of my kids…